suburban gothic.
a cut & paste-style perzine inspired by life in the suburbs. memories, ghosts, identity, overthinking, heartbreak, mental illness, photographs, paranoia, letters of various sorts to people, etc.
#1; "snow can wait"
winter 2003
32 pages, quarter-sized. b&w, cut&paste. bound by hand using grey thread and a three-hole pamphlet stitch.
this new series is a new direction for me, "more substance and less serendipitous" than my previous efforts, as i say in the intro. basically, it's more serious writing and just more of it...less random and more of an actual perzine format.
the first issue, which is subtitled "snow can wait," is of a winter theme. the zine has plenty of photos and musings on winter in nebraska, the hours, love, valentine's day and mixtapes.
(120 copies exist.)
32 pages, quarter-sized. b&w, cut&paste. bound by hand using grey thread and a three-hole pamphlet stitch.
this new series is a new direction for me, "more substance and less serendipitous" than my previous efforts, as i say in the intro. basically, it's more serious writing and just more of it...less random and more of an actual perzine format.
the first issue, which is subtitled "snow can wait," is of a winter theme. the zine has plenty of photos and musings on winter in nebraska, the hours, love, valentine's day and mixtapes.
(120 copies exist.)
#2; "corazon; diablo"
may 2003
32 pages, quarter-sized. b&w, cut&paste. bound by hand with fashionable red thread using a four-hole pamphlet stitch.
the second issue is subtitled "corazon: diablo" and is full of letters [in english, of course ;D] to three people i loved/thought i loved in the past couple years. there are also plenty of photos.
(166 copies exist.)
32 pages, quarter-sized. b&w, cut&paste. bound by hand with fashionable red thread using a four-hole pamphlet stitch.
the second issue is subtitled "corazon: diablo" and is full of letters [in english, of course ;D] to three people i loved/thought i loved in the past couple years. there are also plenty of photos.
(166 copies exist.)
#3; "walking; dead"
spring 2004
52 pages, halfsized. b&w, cut&paste. bound by hand with ultra-hip blue thread using a four-hole pamphlet stitch.
issue #3 is subtitled "walking; dead" and is much more text-heavy than my previous issues. this issue has a very high trigger factor and deals with my childhood, my experiences with mental illness and self-injury, my philosophy against medication, and identification with various pop culture items.
(246 copies exist.)
52 pages, halfsized. b&w, cut&paste. bound by hand with ultra-hip blue thread using a four-hole pamphlet stitch.
issue #3 is subtitled "walking; dead" and is much more text-heavy than my previous issues. this issue has a very high trigger factor and deals with my childhood, my experiences with mental illness and self-injury, my philosophy against medication, and identification with various pop culture items.
(246 copies exist.)
#3.5; "the edge of no escape"
april 2004
20 pages, 1/8th sized. b&w, cut&paste. stapled.
this issue is more of a supplemental mini than an actual issue in its own right, which is why i'm calling it #3.5 instead of #4. subtitled "the edge of no escape," issue 3.5 is the product of some very rough weeks i've been having, brought on by end of semester stress, the daylight savings time switchover, listening to too much depressing music, identification with tragic figures, wanting things that are bad for me, and generally thinking too much. the pages are mostly text, and the writing is pretty explicit and could very likely be triggering. this zine is basically my way of purging some inner demons so i can survive the rest of the semester.
(150 copies exist.)
20 pages, 1/8th sized. b&w, cut&paste. stapled.
this issue is more of a supplemental mini than an actual issue in its own right, which is why i'm calling it #3.5 instead of #4. subtitled "the edge of no escape," issue 3.5 is the product of some very rough weeks i've been having, brought on by end of semester stress, the daylight savings time switchover, listening to too much depressing music, identification with tragic figures, wanting things that are bad for me, and generally thinking too much. the pages are mostly text, and the writing is pretty explicit and could very likely be triggering. this zine is basically my way of purging some inner demons so i can survive the rest of the semester.
(150 copies exist.)
#4; "variation on a theme [corazon; diablo]"
may 2004
48 pages, quartersized. b&w, cut&paste. red vellum covers, bound with pretty black ribbon.
issue #4 is subtitled "variation on a theme [corazon: diablo]" and basically picks up right where issue #2 left off. issue 4 is longer and more text-heavy, but also includes photos by yours truly and artwork from friends. includes more "love" letters, as well as essays on spinsterhood and sexuality/sexual identity, and a love wishlist.
(286 copies exist.)
48 pages, quartersized. b&w, cut&paste. red vellum covers, bound with pretty black ribbon.
issue #4 is subtitled "variation on a theme [corazon: diablo]" and basically picks up right where issue #2 left off. issue 4 is longer and more text-heavy, but also includes photos by yours truly and artwork from friends. includes more "love" letters, as well as essays on spinsterhood and sexuality/sexual identity, and a love wishlist.
(286 copies exist.)
#5; "hopes+past desires"
july 2004
32 pages, quartersized. b&w, cut&paste. bound by hand with grey thread using a three-hole pamphlet stitch.
this issue, subtitled "hopes+past desires," marks my two-year anniversary of making zines, but it's not an "anniversary issue" in any conventional sense. rather, it's an outpouring of some of the things that have been on my mind lately: nostalgia, memories, remembering vs. forgetting, feeling old, seeing ghosts, plans for the future, etc. text-heavy with a good number of photographs.
it's not my best work by a long stretch, and it's prolly a lot less coherent than previous issues, but it was definitely necessary to make, i think. some things might be triggering.
(230 copies exist.)
32 pages, quartersized. b&w, cut&paste. bound by hand with grey thread using a three-hole pamphlet stitch.
this issue, subtitled "hopes+past desires," marks my two-year anniversary of making zines, but it's not an "anniversary issue" in any conventional sense. rather, it's an outpouring of some of the things that have been on my mind lately: nostalgia, memories, remembering vs. forgetting, feeling old, seeing ghosts, plans for the future, etc. text-heavy with a good number of photographs.
it's not my best work by a long stretch, and it's prolly a lot less coherent than previous issues, but it was definitely necessary to make, i think. some things might be triggering.
(230 copies exist.)
#6; "i'm not like other girls"
autumn-winter 2004-2005
44 pages, quartersized. b&w, cut&paste. bound by hand with maroon thread using a four-hole pamphlet stitch, or stapled with purple staples.
this issue is subtitled "i'm not like other girls," and has a lot to do with identity. there are essays on various parts of my identity, letters to people who piss me off, journal entries, a call to arms, paranoid ramblings, as well as an update on my life since issue #5. text-heavy with a quite a few photographs.
this issue isn't my best work, and a lot of people will prolly not like it, but i needed to make it to get some things out of my head.some things might be triggering.
(120 copies exist.)
44 pages, quartersized. b&w, cut&paste. bound by hand with maroon thread using a four-hole pamphlet stitch, or stapled with purple staples.
this issue is subtitled "i'm not like other girls," and has a lot to do with identity. there are essays on various parts of my identity, letters to people who piss me off, journal entries, a call to arms, paranoid ramblings, as well as an update on my life since issue #5. text-heavy with a quite a few photographs.
this issue isn't my best work, and a lot of people will prolly not like it, but i needed to make it to get some things out of my head.some things might be triggering.
(120 copies exist.)
#6.5; "fathers are black holes that suck up the light"
december 2004
20 pages, 1/6th sized. b&w, cut&paste. stapled.
this issue is a supplement to issue #6, and deals with my dad, my relationship with him, and domestic violence from my childhood related to him.
some things might be triggering.
(120 copies exist.)
20 pages, 1/6th sized. b&w, cut&paste. stapled.
this issue is a supplement to issue #6, and deals with my dad, my relationship with him, and domestic violence from my childhood related to him.
some things might be triggering.
(120 copies exist.)
